So… The pandemic eh? Anyone shot up bleach yet?
Its been pretty rough this entire time. Not a word of a lie, somehow in the almost year now that Covid has been around. I feel i have slipped out of my own normal headspace by a mile and then some. Things were going so well, i feel i had structure and focus, that i had clarity and motivation. And then slowly all of that has disappeared, i had vowed to get in great physical shape, to study hard and overachieve in the classes. But now with lockdowns in the UK, the institution that i am beholden to are demanding the same finance as if i had full access to campus and a productive environment, instead, i am sitting at home most days, not motivated to get out of bed, not sleeping when i should, not eating as i should, and more often than not, i find myself sitting in the same spot every day, trying to get through online lectures, watching the hours fly by, playing some animal crossing because its been the one true highlight added to my game library in the last year, and otherwise feeling like a lot of the person i spent 2-3 years now building as i took this huge chance on myself, is being lost. As if that by the time i finish my studies, its an entirely new rebuilding process, and one i sit and day dream about almost everyday now, more-so than focusing on what i should be focusing on.
I find perhaps the biggest problem in all of this, is that i fell in to the pit of a somewhat valid excuse. The whole world is dealing with this problem, students mental health is at an all time low in many instances, unemployment across several demographics is at an all time high, more and more people have empty kitchen chairs on which a cherished family member would usually be. 4 years of a news feed cluttered with worst president the United States has ever seen, Brexit, boris, political theatre that distorts facts and is more adamant about painting a dark image on the opposition moreso than solving the problems we face. The worlds growing cynicism, idiocy, racism, misinformation filling the shoes of facts, figures, and science, all that coupled with a worldwide pandemic where economies are folding, basic measures are politicized, and anyone wearing a mask is mocked and ridiculed. where as anyone not wearing a mask or social distancing are compliant in letting the virus keep spreading, and killing more people by the day. So whose the idiot in that equation really?
In writing this though, while the brain fog isn’t lifting much at all, and my head feels heavy from how awful a good chunk of the last year has been, i realize though, that maybe i can reclaim more of myself and how things used to be, by trying to get myself back to where i am supposed to be in terms of posting content and building a community for myself. And maybe other disenfranchised students or people feeling the effects of this last year can see that content, that message, and perhaps be motivated to get back to life how it used to be, to have goals again, to strive towards a better future for oneself. so with that, over the course of writing this piece, i have decided this will be a campaign called “Reclaim Life”
I will delve further into this in the coming posts and have a clear message and imagery coming up in the future of this. But it has me excited to think about acutally.