The past presently molds, shapes and prepares you for the future.
So this year has flown by at a just absurdly high pace. LIke mindblowing pace it feels like at times. Christmas is rapidly approaching, and with that the new year, even more with that, the 2010’s come to a close. One thing i’ve routinely noticed between 2010 and now, and i don’t think i truly grasp its when people say things in the vein of “2010, that was such a long time ago” timewise sure, in my mind nope.
Life is spinning by faster each every year is how it routinely feels for me. Remembering back to sports things such as Petter Solberg taking second place in rally mexico in his privately run team. back to falling off my motor scooter and slamming my head in the dead of the night on a gravel road with noone around and no cell reception, I remember how that very same weekend i failed my first attempt at my drivers test, and i was dumped via text message. I remember 2012 the joy of getting into a university in norway, and slowly but surely how that same year realising that accepting that offer was not a good move, and in 2013 leaving that uni without only the debt to show for from being there. Spending that entire year scratching and clawing at ever opportunity in order to keep myself above water financially.
I remember long nights in Oslo, going to a festival and having what still is the best year of work experience in my life, remember 2014 capturing what i thought would be the opportunity of a lifetime with being paid to work in the motorsport industry, only to be there 3 and a half years later having faced every bit of adversity that place had to offer me. Every bitter taste that lingers in my mouth, scar on my body and thought in my head to this day about that experience. I don’t forget any of it.
There are those that surely would say, oh forgive and forget, let the past be the past. No.
Because every experience i have had in this last decade, every good, every bad, every high, every low has shaped me into how i am today, and where i’m at, it took listening to a class mate of mine having premiered a hit single on national radio for me to feel the lowest of low i ever felt in my life. It took me working at that hole in the wall for 3 and a half years to realise that i want happiness over financial safety. It took me a conversation with my mother about what to do with my life to pursue my true passion in life of content creation and media. It took every passion i have had in this last decade of content creation, motorsport, music, film, literature, training, to shape and mold this person that today, and this isn’t boasting, but that today people come to for advice, that they can lean on to tell them whats what and what is a good move based on my own experience, someone that i am proud to be, someone i am proud to see through each day, someone i am proud to work on and keep shaping to be an example, Someone that will never stop believing in himself or others, i have been there in my own mind, that difficult feeling of “i am nothing, i wont amount to shit, i am a failure” but its taken going there, tasting those feelings, to struggle, to have to fight and put energy into ones own existence that has given me the clarity and relative peace of mind to treat myself with the respect i have earned and continue to earn from peers, family, lecturers, people online, friends. I know i’m on the right path, i know that so long as i keep my mind to it, i can succeed at any fucking thing i want. Thats what the 2010’s have truly instilled in me. That the past presently molds, shapes and prepares you for the future.
If you read this, i’d like to encourage the same thoughts from you. What have you done in the 2010’s that you remember? How has it shaped you as you enter yet another decade that has no guarantee of being better than the last one. As DDP, the immaculate coach he is has taught me by way of his book and his DDPY Program. “Write it down. Don’t just think it, ink it.”
Have a Merry Christmas, a happy new year. And i hope you have an eventful, and positive decade of experience ahead of you!